It seems so. It is only the first week of the year and already I'm on antibiotics. Mind you, I was on an antibiotic from December 21 - 30. I felt really good by the 30th but....that didn't last long. I can't help but believe the weather plays some part in this: on January 1st, it was a beautiful, sunny day of 50 degrees; a few days later, it was 6 degrees when I woke up.
I wonder, too, if I've had too cavalier an attitude toward recovery. Should I have been more cautious around the holidays? Should I have avoided dining out? Should I have hibernated at Christmas? Am I washing my hands often enough? Yes, my chapped hands reply. Am I drinking enough? Most definitely. Am I getting enough fresh air and exercise? Three miles of walking outside each day has been my goal. Am I eating well? Hmmm...well, I'm eating...but most of the time it is healthy, though there is room for improvement. (remember that resolution to eat an anti-inflammatory diet?)
It's difficult to find balance. How do I go out and live my life without actually going out and living my life?? How do I not become a prisoner to this cancer?? I continue to search for the answer.
For now, though, I'll stay at home, spend my working hours in my home office, and don a mask when the day comes that I am ready to venture out again.
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